Feeling rejected..Not fitting in..

I know a bad day doesn’t equal a bad life, but in the midst of the moment it really feels like it. I’m doing really well overall. The last couple days have been rough though. It has been triggered by feeling rejected by someone I’ve been kind of dating and also from a close friend. Also not feeling like I fit in anywhere. In the past those have been huge triggers for me to get high/drink or self-harm.

Saturday night was the worst. I just couldn’t stop crying and my thoughts were going crazy. I wanted to talk to someone, but couldn’t even put my feelings into words and didn’t want to sound crazy. Sunday the sadness continued. I pretty much slept all day. I haven’t felt like this in a while. Ugh.. It’s now Monday morning and back to work. I’m trying to focus today and get work done. My thoughts are still racing..

This too shall pass. I know.